Pictures!

All clean!
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I uploaded like a bazillion pictures today... pretty much every picture we've taken since just before Christmas. I told you pregnancy is distracting. >^.^<

Blogger has gone all screwy

It's not wrapping the lines correctly.  I've done my best to make it legible, and Mark is working on fixing it, so sorry if it looks funny and please be patient.

Back from the doctor

I've been pronounced healthy and sound again, and all the blood tests came back normal, so at least I have the comfort of knowing that my body didn't somehow kill my baby.  The pathologist's report was fairly useless, as it could find no probable cause of death other than probable chromisomal abnormalities, and possible cord accident.  We did learn however that it wasn't a boy, it was a girl.  I think I've come to terms with that, though... if you can name a girl Madisen, you can name a girl Emersen.  She'll just have to be Emersen Pauline, I suppose.  The best news though is that this will have no forseeable effect on any future pregnancies, as it was just bad luck - I had been having irrational terror of being
 labeled "high risk" for the rest of my reproductive career, and am feeling quite relieved.

I have, unfortunately, developed an irrational terror of my obstetrician's waiting 
room and the hospital, but with luck I should be able to work through that... in 
addition, I can go back to the midwife for the next one, hopefully deliver at 
home, and if nothing else, I'm sure I can find another backup doctor.  It's not that 
Dr. Broadbent is bad, he is a wonderful doctor and I'd recomend him to anyone, it's just a little hard to warm up to the guy who told 
you your baby is dead.

So, we have some closure, and I'm feeling much better, and trying to get back to work.  Wish me luck and sanity, folks, 'cause I'm going to need it.

Sad news...

Well, for anyone who hasn't heard already, we lost the baby.  We found out he was gone last Monday at the ultrasound, we saw the o.b. on Tuesday, he induced me and the baby was stillborn in the wee small hours of Wednesday, April 25.  It was a boy, and we named him Emersen Paul.

We're slowly pulling back together, but having a rather rough time, as can be expected.  I'm doing well, health-wise.  We will going back to the doctor on Wednesday for our follow up appointment, at which we'll get the pathologist's report, and maybe find out what happened.  As things stand, they're saying cord accident (the cord was around his neck) and probable chromisomal abnormalities.  The doctor doesn't think that having the cord around his neck just once like it was would have caused any harm (a third of the babies he delivers have the cord around their neck, and no problems) unless there were underlaying problems that would have killed him anyway.  So what it boils down to is, there's nothing anyone could have done.  We'll also be getting the last of the blood tests in -- they are testing for abnormal clotting factors in me, which could have cut off blood to the placenta, but the tests are normal so far so that is unlikely.  If it was clotting factors, they can give me medicine next time to keep it from happening again though, so we have to make certain that wasn't the case.  Wait and see, I suppose.