Sunday, April 26, 2009

Ravelers are kind, generous people

This is all the yarn I recieved yesterday. Birthday presents for my girl! I asked for yarn on the Random Acts of Kindness board to make things for the NICU/bereavement program at the local hospital. Ravelry is the awesome!

Saturday, April 25, 2009

This is going to be a dead baby post

So if you are easily depressed, I won't be too offended if you choose to skip it.

Shortly after Emersen was born, I expressed the (to me very understandable) sentiment that I wished I had died, it hurt so much. Everyone around me, panicked, rushed to reasure me that no, I was much better off alive, as if I had died, too, I would miss so much, particularly that I would miss so many things with Elspeth. Her graduation. Her wedding. Nobody realized, I think, that I had already missed all those things with Emersen, and so much more... her birth (the drugged, traumatic ten hours I got does not count), nursing her, changing her diapers, teething, everything. Parents do not realize how lucky they are to stay up all night with a screaming, colicy, teething baby. It is a gift from God, and I missed it all. Today I'm missing her second birthday, and it hurts pretty bad.

Happy birthday baby. I love you.